Rozana and Day 3. The hospitals

IsraAID is a wonderful organization that does great work on behalf of Israel and the Jewish people all over the world. When there is an emergency, they show up. Today I had the opportunity to go to their Tel Aviv offices and both learn about their work in Gaza.

What happened on October 7 is inexcusable. It’s unforgivable. Since then the people of Gaza have suffered a war their leaders, Hamas, lost at a high cost to the people. Most have had to move from their homes and continue moving because of Hamas continuing to fight.

It was amazing to see the statistics about the work of IsraAID in providing healthcare, medication, supplies, baby food, hygiene kits and more to the people in Gaza. I have complained about how the UN doesn’t do their job, how Hamas and various gangs steal food and supplies, reselling it at a premium. What is happening with IsraAID makes food, supplies and medical care get directly to the people.

Rozana also does work in Gaza the report from IsraAID was helpful and informing for our work.

This work in the medical clinics in Gaza is not only changing lives in Gaza, it is building bridges between the people of Gaza and Israel. While there, we heard a great story that exemplifies this, something you won’t hear anywhere else.

A key clinic coordinator broke his wrist and was unable to join an educational zoom. The people in Gaza heard about this and started calling him, reaching out to him, checking in on him, worried about him. Then they set up a zoom for him with a physiotherapist in Gaza so he could get exercises to help him recover. All this happened while he was sitting on his couch in Tel Aviv. The people of Gaza were taking care of him, not knowing he was already in good hands. He mattered to them. Hard to imagine but true.

There are plenty of employees in Gaza, all working in the clinics providing direct care to those in need. Not terrorists hiding behind medicine but real doctors and nurses working with orgs to help take care of the health needs of the people in Gaza.

IsraAID described the conditions in Gaza to us. The food remains expensive even with aid flowing in. We were told that one sheep is $8,000 in Gaza. It shouldn’t be that way but it is. Hamas continues to create problems for the people of Gaza and yet IsraAID and others are there as trusted partners, providing key humanitarian aid. There is a need for more and we talked about how to expand from two clinics to four. How to provide more trainings for the doctors and nurses in Gaza. You won’t read that in the papers or see it on the news.

We left IsraAID feeling inspired and headed to Sheba Hospital (Tel HaShomer). Sheba is a massive hospital. It is in Israel. Yet Rozana has partnered with them to create fellowships for Palestinian doctors. We had the privilege of meeting with Dr Reut who heads the Pediatric ICU and her fellow, Dr Ruba Rizik. We had a chance to learn about Ruba and the fellowship.

Ruba comes from a small village in East Jerusalem and graduated from Al Quds University. She got a job as a doctor at the Al Makassed hospital in the pediatric ICU. Al Makassed partnered with Sheba (yes, a Palestinian hospital partnered with an Israeli one) and prepared to send her for a three year fellowship at the Sheba Pediatric ICU. But there were many challenges along the way for Ruba. First she had to take the Israeli exams. It took her a year to study properly and then she took them and passed – just in time for Covid to hit.

In 2022 she applied to the fellowship again and was accepted. Now the challenge was getting a Rozana funded scholarship. She worked with Rozana for a year to get the funding and she started October 11, 2023. We all know what happened 4 days prior.

She was unsure if she would be safe in Israel or how her coworkers would treat her. Her parents were panicked. She told us how she would talk with her mom on the phone as she walked the 15 minutes to and from work to help them both feel safe and how she had multiple locks on her apartment door.

Her supervisor and coworkers accepted her. They welcomed her. She learned Hebrew – both conversational and medical terminology. She had to learn to do all things that doctors do in Israel, which included many things that nurses do in her Palestinian hospital.

When the recent Iran-Israel war started, she went home to her parent’s house. Nobody was sure how long she would stay there and her supervisor gave her as much time as she needed. Shockingly, only 10 days later she returned to work at Sheba because she missed her work family and she felt that they needed her. Palestinians and Israelis not just working together but being like a family. When will you see that on the news or read that story in the NY Times?

Reut and Ruba at Sheba Hospital

Ruba shared that Al Makassed, the hospital she is to return to in 6 months, just told her they closed their pediatric ICU. Now she needs to stay at Sheba two more years to do a fellowship in general ICU. Rozana will be there for her financially to continue the fellowship. This amazing Palestinian and doctor, who was terrified of living and working in Israel, is committing for another two years to live and work in Israel, apart from her family. She is amazing. The fellowship program is amazing. And Palestinians and Israelis are working together and are becoming colleagues and friends.

We left Sheba with huge smiles on our faces. What an incredible person, doctor and program. We were filled with pride for what Rozana accomplishes and the idea of growing the fellowship. How many more fellowships could we add at Sheba each year? 10? 20? More? Changing the world with each one.

We started our drive to Haifa so we could visit the Carmel Medical Center and get an update from them on our Shared Life Program that is partnered with Rozana.

Before October 7th, Carmel realized that they wanted to address Jewish-Arab relations in the workplace. It was important to them that every employee at Carmel felt safe, secure and a part of the community. They began in September 2023. After October 7 they weren’t sure if they could run the program but they knew they had to try, so they simply did it.

They knew they had to address the Arab, Jewish, Christian and Druze relationships in the hospital to not only ensure the best medical care for patients but also ensure a safe working space for every employee. The program worked. The response to it was overwhelming. Once again, the media wants to focus on the hate and ignore any instance of shared society, where Arabs, Palestinians and Jews work together, become colleagues and even friends. As we listened to the update we got more and more excited. We began discussing the next steps in the upcoming year. What did they imagine the next year would look like? What else can we do together to enhance the program? How can we help improve these relationships even more? Can we involve patients in this process since Carmel serves such a diverse population?

It was energizing. It was exciting. It was full of hope. Haifa is the epitome of shared society and the Carmel Medical Center is an example of why this is true.

As we were concluding our day, I began to realize how much I missed my colleagues and new friends from Rozana who live in the West Bank. They weren’t with us because some need permits to enter Israel and couldn’t get them while others had checkpoints closed which made it incredibly difficult to join us. It was a powerful feeling and realization. My Palestinian friends. They weren’t allowed to join us. Amazing people and professionals who couldn’t get a permit or who couldn’t travel easily because of blocked checkpoints weren’t able to participate in the joy of what they helped create. Despite the amazing day filled with hope, it made me realize just how much work there is to do and how far we still have to go. It showed me how important this work is – making it possible for Palestinians and Israelis to get to know each other as people and colleagues and maybe even friends. How this work can change the world and our reality.

From IsraAID to Sheba to Carmel it was a meaningful and impactful day of hope and excitement. I am lucky to have the opportunity to meet these people, work with and on behalf of everybody I met in these three days of site visits, and make a difference in the region and in the world. I talk with many friends in the United States who see no hope, who see no future. I’m here to tell them and you that isn’t true. I experienced it myself and sometime soon, you will be able to as well. If you are going to be in Israel and want to see the work in the West Bank, let me know and we will make it happen. If you want to come to Israel and travel to the West Bank to see it, we will make that happen too. It’s simply too important. As we finish our site visits I am filled with gratitude for being a part of the amazing work of Rozana.

Terror in the West Bank

I apologize for the length of this post. It was a complicated and challenging day and requires a lot of explanation

Today I had the chance to visit a few Bedouin villages outside of Ramallah. Like many of you, I have read and heard about the problem of ‘settler violence’ but without much context or understanding. It seemed like a problem but something that didn’t happen often and was being done by a few groups without too much of an impact.

I learned today that is entirely false and a lie we have been fed. We started the day by going to the town of Mukhmas, southeast of Ramallah in area B. Mukhmas has beautiful homes and it’s a beautiful town made up almost entirely by Palestinian expats who use it as a second home for the summer. This meant the town was empty today.

We went to the edge of town where we met our guide for this part along with many members of the Bedouins who live just outside Mukhmas. We were warned that the settlers may show up when we were there and if they did, not to engage and to get into the jeeps and leave immediately. It wasn’t what I wanted to do if they showed up but I agreed anyway.

We jumped into jeeps to take the windy, rocky road to the top of the mountain. At the top, we looked out over two Bedouin villages. They pointed out the six new, small settlement that popped up and who have been terrorizing them.

Then Muhammad spoke to us about his village and what happened. He told us how the settlers started by letting their sheep run through the village to create havoc and damage. The next step was the sheep running through the village while the settlers lit houses and cars on fire. After they did that, the village called the police. The station is about 7 minutes away. 30 minutes later they showed up, with the settlers being gone. On the road in, the police drove by the convoy of settlers but said they didn’t see them and there was nothing they could do. A month later, another massive attack happened. 10-15 days after that, another attack, this time with more than 50 settlers. This means others were imported to participate. During this attack, 4 houses were burned down, 2 cars were burned and the police didn’t respond promptly and when they did, they said there was nothing they could do. The community decided they could no longer stay and disbanded. 22 families from 2 tribes were forced out of their homes because the army and the police are choosing to allow the violence and not arresting anybody. Planned violence won. I looked out at the empty village below and only saw lost dreams and heartache. I thought of the pogroms my family faced as the were forced across Europe before finally boarding whatever boat showed up next and the randomness of the boat that ended with me in America instead of Argentina by family lore. This isn’t my family but it was my family’s story.

Muhammad speaking to us. His former village is in the background.

Then we heard from Yusuf. His village, right nearby, was 13,000 dunams (1 Dunam is 1,000 square meters), they had 1500 people living in the village, and produced 60 tons of olive oil per year, the main financial business of the village. They also raise sheep. The settlers have slowly confiscated most of their land. They face 4-5 attacks most days. They don’t have weapons but the settlers do. In the worst attack, one person was murdered, four others were shot, and 350 of their sheep were stolen by the settlers. Once again, the police and IDF did nothing to help but they did attack the villagers with tear gas. The person murdered was Yusuf’s cousin, right in front of him.

Our guide shared the next thing that happened is that the village and surrounding are got classified as a military zone. This means no observers allowed. Only residents. And the settlers are considered residents. The terror continues even worse under these conditions. The NGO who observe and help them sued and the case went to the Supreme Court where they won – it was not a real military zone so it was removed. But nothing changed in regards to the attacks or the lack of protection by the police, the IDF or the legal system.

Yusuf speaking

They now face extra security costs they can’t afford. Sound like something Jews face in the US and Europe? People try to kill is because of who we are?

And what about the police and the army? Do we believe in the rule of law? Isn’t the Torah filled with laws? Are we people of the book, of laws? Imagine attacks on any of our Jewish organizations where the police didn’t show up promptly and allowed the attack to continue. Would we allow that?

We were heartbroken with what we heard and saw. We left and began to head to our next stop when a text came in, letting us know that as soon as we left, the settlers showed up, trying to terrorize the Bedouins.

We were all a bit shaken but continued on to our next stop, the Bedouin village of Dar Abu Farja, east of Ramallah.

We arrived at Dar Abu Farja and discovered an old school Bedouin village. Not the fake ones that tourists go to – a real one where they face real challenges.

The town leader greeted us with a few other leaders and a lot of children. They were happy to see us and to share their story.

They finally settled in their village in 1970 and bought the land. They were a small village of 12 when they began. They lived there happily, raising sheep and growing olives and grew to 120 people. Since they live in area C, under the control of the IDF, no basic services are provided. If they had been in area B and under the PA for civil society, they would have been provided. Every other week, a mobile medical clinic would come to provide services. It was a life they enjoyed. In September 2022, the settlers arrived and began harassing them and stealing their sheep. The police and IDF did nothing to protect them. A few years ago, they sold most of the sheep to stop them from getting stolen. Their Olive trees have been destroyed by the settlers. They no longer have an economy. They can’t go out of the village to work because they take shifts to protect the village.

I went to use the public bathroom and discovered it was a hole in the ground – an old school Bedouin village. I washed my hands and returned in time to hear him talk about the water dispute. The settlers camp near the water line and cut it. The village sued and won – the settlers were required to move away from the water line and not interfere with it. However, once again, there is no enforcement. As a result, the village has been without water for a month. I live in Florida and due to hurricanes have been without water in my house for a few days. It’s miserable and we don’t stay in the house. I can’t imagine a month without it. I felt guilty for washing my hands after the bathroom and then began to wonder – no water for a month – how is there water to wash your hands. So I asked.

An NGO brings them 4 trucks of water each week and they have to ration it. Without this water they couldn’t survive and would have to move.

Despite their water shortage they continue to offer us coffee and tea. Despite the Israeli government not enforcing the law, they treated us kindly and welcomed us. It so easily could have been the opposite. In fact much of the commentary by the talking heads around the world is how these people are being filled with hatred. My experience was just the opposite. They want to live in peace. They want to live on their land, raise sheep and grow olives, and build their families where they live. It sounds exactly like what we ask the world as Jews. Just let us live. Don’t terrorize us. Don’t hate us. We don’t want to conquer, we just want to live our lives and be happy.

As we walked out of the village, we saw the settlers across the street. We saw the tents the Bedouins live in. And we saw the marks on the ground at the edge of the village where the settlers had camped, brought their sheep, and cooked something, all to intimidate the members of the village.

As we drove to meet with the leaders of Taybeh, a mainly Christian town in the West Bank, we got a call that the IDF showed up at Dar Abu Farja after we left, asking questions about who we were, why we were there, and what was our purpose in being there. The police then showed up as well and they were interrogating our guide for these Bedouin villages and his team. The Rozana CEO left us to go back to the village to deal with the IDF and the police. We didn’t know if anybody, or all of us, would be arrested.

It turns out that what we learned a few hours earlier about declaring these villages ‘military zones’ to protect the settlers had happened to Dar Abu Farja but nobody informed the village leadership or those who work with the village. We got a first hand experience with what this looks like and what it feels like. There is no military reason for this village to classified as they have. The only reason is to protect the settlers and push the Bedouins out. I am a big supporter of the IDF and have many friends serving in miluim (reserves) and many in leadership roles. I love Israel and the Israeli people. I come often and wish it was even more. Learning about this, talking with those affected, and then experiencing it personally is heartbreaking.

When we arrived at Taybeh, we were welcomed heartily by the leadership of the town. They once again had coffee, food, and then tea for us. The leadership was glad we came. He then began to tell us what has happened in Taybeh. A town of 15,000 now only has 2,000 residents. This is a tourist town for Christians as it is believed that Jesus visited the town. Since October 7 they lost almost all tourism, their largest revenue. Imagine Orlando or Las Vegas losing all their tourism and what the economic impact would be. That’s what happened in Taybeh. Then the army confiscated land where 90% of their olive trees are located. Olive oil, their 2nd largest part of the economy, has been decimated. The 2,000 residents that remain can only do so because of family financial support from abroad. Their more local government is close to collapsing because of no economy and no jobs.

Two gates were added at the town which makes travel much more difficult. The gates are closed at random times and often for no reason. As a result of this, working outside the village is very difficult. One of the town leaders was a school principal in Ramallah. He had to resign due to the challenge of getting to and from Ramallah each day and has been unemployed ever since.

Once again, these people who had very reason to hate Israel. They don’t. They hate what is happening and what the government is doing, but all they want to do is live in their town, have jobs, and raise their children. They were warm, welcoming, and kind.

The leadership of Taybeh

We finished our visits by going for lunch at the famous Taybeh Brewing Company (in full disclosure I had never heard of it before).

This is a local, private business that is known throughout the country as having the best beer. It’s famous. They work with local women to support them and our lunch was homemade by local women. we sat outside, ate, and enjoyed the experience.

After lunch we got a tour of the brewery. It was incredibly impressive. Since October 7th and the reduced tourism, they chose to expand their capacity. They ship to many countries (you can see if it’s available where you live here). They also now make wine, gin and whiskey. Plus they make their own Olive Oil. I purchased a bottle of wine for my father-in-law, a bottle of whiskey for one of my closest friends, and olive oil for our home.

Historically they have an entire weekend of Octoberfest. Children’s events, live music, and celebrations. People fill the hotels and travel from all over. Since October 7th they haven’t been able to hold it. They are hopeful for 2027. A wonderful cultural event bringing people together lost by the town. I hope they are able to hold it in 2027

As we left Taybeh and headed toward Tel Aviv, we came upon a checkpoint. Our guide and his team were a few cars ahead of us. They were stopped, made to get out of their car, all their bags were searched and they were interrogated. They were clearly targeted. The checkpoint backed up. Luckily they were finally allowed through. When we got to the checkpoint, we were boarded by two IDF soldiers, questioned and made to show our passports. This wasn’t normal security and we felt targeted at well. As we cleared the checkpoint the guards relaxed their security and cars drove through in the normal manner.

THE STATE OF ISRAEL will be open for Jewish immigration and for the Ingathering of the Exiles; it will foster the development of the country for the benefit of all its inhabitants; it will be based on freedom, justice and peace as envisaged by the prophets of Israel; it will ensure complete equality of social and political rights to all its inhabitants irrespective of religion, race or sex; it will guarantee freedom of religion, conscience, language, education and culture; it will safeguard the Holy Places of all religions; and it will be faithful to the principles of the Charter of the United Nations.

This was a challenging day. I love Israel. Those who know me know just how passionate I am about Israel and how I am constantly working to educate people about what is really happening, not the lies told on social media, by podcasters or in the news. Today showed me a reality that I cannot defend. I think of the things that happened and are happening to Jews and how we fight against it and how we get angry when we don’t have government support for our safety and security.

We see shootings at Jewish buildings, cars driving into synagogues, beatings in the street and get furious when we aren’t protected. Imagine houses owned by Jews in your neighborhood being burned. Your car being burned. The water cut off at your home for a month because you are Jewish. We have seen Jews murdered walking outside a Jewish event. Multiply that by 10 or more.

Now that I have seen what is really happening, experienced a bit of it personally and met and heard from those impacted, I can’t stand by. Israel is better than this. In the Israeli Declaration of Independence it reads

We are violating our own Declaration of Independence in an egregious manner. I love Israel and because of that I have to share what I saw and what I felt. This must end. It’s not who we are as a Jewish State and it is not what Israel was founded on. We need to demand better. Israel can and should do better.

** If you are interested in helping provide water to Dar Abu Farja, please contact me. $350 provides a week’s worth of water to this Bedouin community until they can get the water turned back on.

Trouble sleeping after the video so a (very) long post to discuss

I saw the video of the Hamas atrocities from October 7, 2023, this past Thursday, December 14, 2023.  It was 47 minutes of horrifying video of the worst that people do to each other.  It was evil incarnate.  The Israel consulate shared with us that they have even worse video that they won’t share because it’s both too horrifying and because they don’t want to traumatize the families of the victims.  After what I viewed, I completely understand and don’t want or need to see that footage.

A friend asked me the next day if I was able to sleep that night, having just witnessed these atrocities and I told them that I had slept ok and was still processing everything that I saw and that I felt and integrating it with conversations I have had with family and friends living in Israel, some actively serving in the IDF and in the middle of the war.

I appreciate the sleep I had the night of Thursday December 14 because I haven’t slept well since.  The more I process, the more I think about it, the more I share with others about the experience, the more I feel my feelings, the worse I sleep.  There is so much that disturbs me about October 7, about what I hear from my Israeli family and friends, about the news coverage and what is happening in our country, what some of our Representatives and Senators in Washington are saying and doing, the United Nations, The International Red Cross, the loss of life that is occurring, all juxtaposed on my own experiences in Israel, with Israeli-Arabs, with Israeli Druze families, and with Palestinians.  My mind constantly spins with many thoughts that consume me.

On my 2019 Encounter trip to Israel, I spent 4 days meeting with leaders of Palestinian civil society and became friends with 4 amazing people.  I have found myself thinking about them often since the video.  They want peace with Israel.  They are vocal about Israel’s right to exist.  They are the people we need to have a larger voice. 

One of them, Ali Abu-Awaad, came to Orlando and spoke to a crowd that was half Israeli just before the pandemic.  The Israelis were blown away as they had never heard a Palestinian speak like that.  I’ll never forget what he said in Ramallah and in Orlando.  “The path to peace is not through Jewish blood.  It is through Jewish hearts.  We have to give the Jewish people a reason to trust us.”  How are they doing?  What are they feeling? 

I think of Osama, who was taught to hate the ‘Yehuds’ from birth, found redemption in an Israeli jail, through Combatants for Peace, and at a Shabbat dinner.  Does he still keep a kippah in his pocket because he never knows when he’ll be invited to Shabbat dinner? (A direct quote from him).  Does he still believe in a better future or has this shaken his hope for the future.

I think of Mahmoud, the owner of the Palestinian bookstore in East Jerusalem, where the password for Wi-Fi was “JerusalemIsOurs” and yet his startling admission to us later that evening that “If Zionism means the Jews have a right to the land and we also have a right to the land, then I am a Zionist.”  This came from somebody who a few years early thought Zionism was evil.  I think of the former Hamas member and former member of the Al Aqsa Brigade that I had lunch with one day.  Are they still on a path to peace or has this brought back their hatred and desire for violence?

I think about my friends and family in Israel.  I check in regularly.  My friends and family in Jerusalem are largely safe but also emotionally impacted.  Most of them have family living elsewhere that are at risk or have children, relatives, and/or friends who are actively serving.  Reading the names of the soldiers lost every day is a painful daily occurrence where we hope and pray not to know any of the names and then feeling guilty that we didn’t know the brave soldiers who paid the ultimate price for the Jewish people and the State of Israel. 

I think about my friends who live on Bitzaron, a Moshav in the south of Israel.  On October 7 we texted via WhatsApp as they hid in their safe room, hoping that terrorists wouldn’t come to their Moshav.  We have kept in touch throughout the time since and I have shared the aching in my soul to be in Israel, volunteering, helping to cook, clean, harvest crops, or do whatever they need me to do.  They have told me not to come yet, it wasn’t safe yet, wait a little longer.   Last week they messaged me, asking if I could come to help them with harvesting the crops as many are reservists, called up to fight in this war, and they don’t have enough people to harvest the crops.  It broke my heart telling them I couldn’t come now, as my family doesn’t want me to go because of their fears for my safety.  My wife has been to Israel 5 times and knows the realities.  My kids have seen me go to Israel most of their lives and know my love and passion for the country and the people.  They know how much I want to go and yet, as of now, I won’t go in order to honor their needs.  And yet I think of Irit and Avi and the Moshav and their crops and the need for food for the country and am left so conflicted.

I think of my friends and their children who are currently serving on the front lines.  I think of their bravery.  Some close to my age yet still on the front lines.  Others are 18, 19, 20, 21 – younger than my own children – who are doing what is needed for the Jewish people and the State of Israel.  I worry about them every single day, those serving in the South and in Gaza as well as those in the north dealing with Hezbollah.  I pray for their safety and that this war ends successfully soon so they can return to their lives.

I think of my friends who have family members that were either murdered on October 7 or were taken hostage.  The two that I know were hostages have thankfully been released.  I have previously written about Hila, kidnapped at 12 years old and released the day before her 13th birthday.  I’m so grateful to everybody who went to the Amazon page we set up to buy her birthday and Hanukkah gifts so she would feel the love from the worldwide Jewish and non-Jewish community.  Everything we listed and added and added was purchased and sent to her.  Her mother was released just after Hila’s birthday, so they are together but how are they doing?  How shattered are they?  How will they recover?  I have a little relief knowing that all of us joined together to help in our small way for her birthday and for Hanukkah to bring some light to their darkness. 

I think about those who are still hostages.  Are they alive?  Do they believe we haven’t forgotten them?  What about the infant and the children?  What about the women who were raped and taken captive?  Are they still being raped?  Are some of them now pregnant with their rapist’s baby?  Will they ever be released?  We are now getting daily reports of hostages murdered in captivity by Hamas.  Are they all dead and we are just waiting to hear the news day by day?  What about the tragic shooting of 3 escaped hostages by the IDF?  Are there more hostages that escaped?  What about the IDF soldiers who shot them – they were trying to keep safe and alive and now have to live with this for the rest of their lives. 

I think about those in Gaza who will remain after Hamas is removed.  How do we take care of them so that they believe in peace and in a future without violence, with prosperity and freedom?  How and who will rebuild Gaza?  I pray it will be the Abraham Accord countries who have the resources and can help put in a new government that will benefit the people of Gaza and give them a chance for a meaningful and fulfilling life that occurs peacefully next to their neighbor, Israel.  Is there hope?  Will we lose focus and leave them to be ‘saved’ by Iranian money once again? 

I think about all those calling for a “Ceasefire Now” because it sounds wonderful and their believe it will save lives, not understanding that Hamas has said they will commit the same atrocities or worse again and again and again.  Their leadership has said this publicly, on video, multiple times.  “Ceasefire now” means let Hamas regroup, rearm, and begin to murder Israelis once again, continuing the cycle of violence and ensuring more die.  How do we help them see that evil must be eradicated.  That there is no diplomacy with evil.  The only trust that exists with evil is that they aren’t trustworthly.

I think about the International Red Cross and how they haven’t seen a single hostage in captivity in Gaza.  Their only role has been to serve as a taxi service for those being released.  How they refuse to ensure needed medication gets to the hostages.  The abject failure of this organization haunts me and angers me. 

I think about UNRWA and how ineffective they are and how they are actively keeping Hamas going and harming the citizens of Gaza.   The Gazan people are rioting and stealing the aid from the warehouses because they know Hamas will steal it from UNRWA and they won’t get the food and medicine and water being supplied daily.  I think about the UNRWA employees who kept hostages in their homes.  About the doctor at a hospital who kept a hostage in his home.  These are the ‘innocent civilians’ we hear about and they are not innocent, they are complicit.

I think about being safe in the United States and around the world.  I haven’t felt safe in a year and have taken steps and continue to take steps to ensure my safety and the safety of my family.  I wait for the violence against Jewish people in the United States to increase significantly.  I wait for the first of what I fear will be many Jewish mass casualties in the United States.

I’m sorry this is so long but now you know why I have trouble sleeping since watching the video.  You know what I think about when I am awake and when I close my eyes.